allright, since I'm suposed to move to London, I guess its time to practice my English... well, well, well, I was just wondering, how would you say in Eng. Raspizdjaj? hmmm... kind of bothers me..
I mean, everybody got somekind of ideology, but most of the time the name of that Ideology is in latin or greek... hmm... but raspizdjajstvo? One thing is for shore... thats not in latin... what else? well... well.. well... read through diary of snowtiger... for f*ks sake! I started in the midle... on page 15... and? and I read through to page 10 for about an hour non stop... G! man!? whats all that suposed to mean? hmmm... wierd... any way... Spelling is awful... I'll have to do something about it... I haven't yet figured out what... I guess I'll have to take my text though the word eng. vers. in order to correct my misstakes... Who said that in order to be fluent in some language, u have to be able to write in it? F*ck... I can't even spell in Russian, although its my mothertounge... And all of thouse who read my diary in russian will definetly agree with that... I'm kind of mad about it... I guess its some kind of complex... I wonder what would Freud say about that? I mean... Why I'm I foukusing so much on learning writen English, when I perfectly well know that I dont stand a chance? well, I guess it has something to do with... with being ME... Me meaning being "raspizdjaz intelligent"... First part, is probably forbidding my brain from taking in any structured info, as beeing totaly inconvinient for my nature... the other part is still forcing me to try... cause I have to admit that I'm trying to be intelligent, in a maner of learning things... But it just cant be structured, and by the book... hmmm... anyway, this just might be it... in totaly unstructured manner writing, in a diary... I guess the results will be obvious later... whether its a failiour... or a sucess...

Anyway, thouse who invented English spelling, must have been bunch of perverts, with some brain disorder, couse nobody, I mean absolutly nobody (may be exept french) can imagine that words like sucess could be spelled that way... try "sakses"... or something like that...

for some reason I feel like writing today... so I just might write something else today...


POSLEDSVIJA OTKRITIJA KRIVIH ZERKAL(paralel'naja real'nost')
Voobshem nahodjas' v takoj mjagko govorja sdavlennoj szatoj atmosfere, ja staralsja vizit'. No u menja eto ploho poluchalos', tak kak ja ne bil v kurse chto takoje Gunsnroses, i ne znal chto takoe pornuha... to est' ja obo vsjom etom dogdadivalsja, no "dognat' ", i uz tem bolee bit' liderom v otlichie ot moskovskoj shkoli ja ne mog. Kogda Sergeju Bodrovu, Rita Monastijova raskazala chto ona rasplakalas' razdevshis' pered vzroslim parnem(22), to mne stalo nemnogo ne posebe, v moi 12 ja strudom predstavljal kakie stradanija i kakoe gore mozet dlja ljudej predstavljat' ih sobstvennaja sexual'naja zizn', tochno tak ze kak ja i ne dogadivalsja o tom kakie naslazdenija ona mozet tait'.

P.S: A vot i moj maskot, Lev v ochkah!
(ps. teper' navernoje nado L'va britogo najti chto b on tepereshnemu obliku sootvestvoval